Insomnia literally means ‘without dreams’ or ‘no dreams’. So could you call someone who doesn’t dream an insomniac as well? Nevermind that dead language. Anyways. Definition of insomnia: habitual sleeplessness/ inability to sleep. Great. Sleep always sounds like music to my ears, but once I am in my bed, the gears start turning. I rethink things said that day, things I should’ve done, and things I am going to do. Not really easy-thinking for a sleepy mind. Thats why I am up at 1:25 am. I know its not too late yet, but having to get up in less than 5 hours, does make it seem short. And I yawn and rub my eyes, but twist and turn. Some other, darker thoughts tend to surface in these hours as well. Like flying fish they jump above the sea of thoughts and make themselves known. Its in these hours that I think about death and self-destruction the most. But don’t worry; I will not do anything I regret.